une pensée isolée

When I was younger, a lady told me... "if you have no money, you won't have any friends..."
My arrogant respond back then.. "Then I won't need any."
I didn't believe her words, but I kept her wisdom in mind as she spoke from her personal experience.

A couple years ago while I was in France -- yeah, I did a lot of thinking in France about who I was and who I wanted to become or what I did and what I should do -- I decided a counter-attack to the thought slash my defense.. I'd make myself happy no matter what, friends or no friends..

Today I had a thought: what if she was right?
Surely I am fine until this day, just have enough of everything, living as it is and appreciate what I have or even not have.

Perhaps I don't necessarily "need" anybody...
But it feels awfully lonely sometimes...

I miss Adi...
Friends or no friends, I can only hope he stays with me...
It's funny how two people who have been living apart for over 15 yrs...
And one day one wakes up and wish there is a door to knock two flights up...

ich hörte zu ihrem rekord...

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